But through life experience and years of contemplation (which goes to show, young people, that wisdom of revelation isn’t something that you can fully realise just by reading once, or even over a year, with your own mind and a limited experience) I realise that as with many things He ‘imperiously’ commands or forbids us, is for our own good.

If the universe is to end one day and turn into an intense plasma of Hell, into which we will all be brought, and our only way to safety is to pass on the straight bridge to the Heights and into the universe of heaven, which requires preparation and no trivial assistance, we should be grateful that we are told about this fate beforehand to prepare. And if the human trait most likely to make us fail to prepare is the belief of self-sufficiency, to train ourselves to say thank you, to train gratitude, is very important to make us realise we are not, as we want to believe, self-sufficient even now.

The order to be thankful is like a sergeant barking “give me 50!” which profits the sergeant not at all, but is intended to build your own strength for that which you will face.

and Allah knows best 🙂

You´ll get it, keep in contact with Him, today maybe seconds, tomorrow minutes, in a week will be …. . everyone of us has our own rythm, none is better than the other, all that surrounds the process is different, but the essence of it, is the same.
Please, be Patiente, Loving and Caring with yourself, you deserve it.
Don´t be afraid of tears, when the Heart begins to melt, all the hardness that we have kept around it, comes out as tears when we are praying. Those tears will bring spring to your Heart. You will recognize them for the Peace you will feel afterwards. They will come to you at the right moment, remember you are in His Hands, you are not alone anymore.
Be sure, I have you in my Heart. God bless you.
All my Unconditional Love.

JKhair.

Alhamdulillah! This is a Heart to Heart sharing. You are learning a lesson of Wisdom, and sometimes is a bit hard, but you´ll get it because you have felt the need of getting rid of these feelings as you said; that´s the Call, now it is your time to pick up the phone and talk to Him. Sometimes will be easier than others, but it deserves the effort because it is the beggining of a Holy Process inside of yourself. Alhamdulillah!
God bless you and bless all your steps in this Holy Process you are in.
All my Unconditional Love to you.
Salam alaikum

Assalamualaikom,
The experience tells me that Real Repentance only comes from God, and a step forward to Forgiveness is to recognice this.
We can change our surface but mantain inside what brought us to sin. If we want to heal ourselves from deep inside, if we want God´s Forgiveness, we go directly to Him, nobody has to know it, but everyone will notice it, surrender to God from deep inside, tell Him what is in your mind, that you don´t have the power to go over it alone, and your recognition that He is The Only One that has the Power to help you to let that go in your mind, body, emotions, soul,…and your recognition that this will happen when He considers best.
Surrender to Him, to His Love, to His Mercy, this is the answer.
Be patient with yourself and the others, love yourself and the others, forgive yourself and the others and be sure you will see the answers.
God is Infinitely Loving, Caring and Patiente, He gives us many opportunities to get the right way in life, ask Him to touch you, to guide you, to show you the right path and to give you the strength to follow Him despite everything that happens around you.
Whoever you are or whoever is the person that needs this, as my brother or sister, thank you very much for sharing and for listening to me, God bless you, and I send you all the Unconditional Love you are able to receive from me.
Allah subhanahu wa ta´ala knows best.