I cant express in words how beautifully written this article is. Not even a single verse I could not agree much.Your writings have given not only motivation but also direction. A confidence that it may not be that one is at fault but it could be a part of Allah s.w.t divine plan! Self realization of What are we seeking!

I feel like I am on the journey but not quite there yet. I’ve been wondering for some years now how I could increase in my love for the Prophet (s).

I’ve also been banging my head. I’ve mostly faced road blocks with hadiths that I did not understand, which seemed strange to me, perhaps even ‘unfair’ (May Allah forgive me).

I tried being angry, tried arguing: It didn’t work.

I tried ‘reinterpreting hadiths’ – didn’t work in most cases – my soul felt this approach wasn’t authentic.

After years of banging my head, I’ve come to realize its I who need Allah and the Prophet (s) – they don’t need me at all. Yet Allah and His Prophet (s) are full of mercy and love anyway for me, for the believers, and all of Creation.

After years of banging my head, I’m finally trying to open my heart. I’ve quit focusing on individual hadiths/incidents and am trying to see the whole amazing person, and his truly noble character, and his amazing smile :)!

Its not easy. Whispers comes (I seek refuge in Allah) and I go back to banging my head. Then I have to step back, shut the mind up and reopen the heart.

Please make dua for me on my journey.

Here is my dua for all:

May Allah increase all of us in our love of Him and His Prophet (s). May we be in the company of those we love in Jannah :)!

Banisatt,

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