Subahanallah… I know exactly the feeling! I feel like my life has no purpose, my friends are fading away, my problems keeps coming, everything that i do has a negative impact, the people whom i trusted are ignoring me, and i even shut myself from the world and still no one came and look for me, and the though of death/killing myself were there… then once i asked Allah to forgive of my sins, help me forget about these stuffs, and suddenly my heart feels soooo light… the problems just fade away… and now alhamduillah… whenever im faced with problems I take no notice about it… i just let it slip away… i let my friends ignoring me disappear, because now im surrounded with people who really cares about me, and I keep on reminding my nieces and nephews about Allah and the stories of our prophets. And always i keep reminding myself that whenever bad things happen, it happen because it was my fault, its a reminder, and its telling me how i need to keep remembering Allah every second/minute/hours/days/months/years until I died.

Same here. I never realized how far gone my thoughts can get sometimes. SubhanAllah.

I’m feeling exactly like u before I read this articles.I always feel like my mom hates me.Because I’m lazy,n disobey her..I’m doing this because I want 2 seek her attention..My great-grandmother(81 this year)raised my sister n me when we were still around 3-4 years old.So,my relationship with my mother is like a “boss n his worker”.But my sister,she good at attracting my mom’s attention.
But after read ur articles,I realised that I was born 2 this world as a Calif..
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!